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christmas-every-day-i-wishAfter reading my devotions this morning, as I do every morning, I began to write in my prayer journal. I say it has turned into more of my “thanksgiving journal” than my prayer journal because, most days, I’m simply thanking Him for various things. Lately, most of my actual prayers are not written – for a few different reasons. This morning, however, turned out to be a little different. Oh, it started out the same – my usual “Good morning Father! Thank You for waking me this morning” then I wrote the words “Christmas Eve” and, after that, I really didn’t even know what I was writing until I finished and read back over it. I felt I should share it and I hope it will touch at least one person’s heart and/or life. I am going to simply share exactly what is written in my journal:

Christmas Eve – the day before we celebrate the day of Your earthly birth – when You chose to put aside Your glory and Your Heavenly home to come and dwell among us AS one of us! My mind is hard-pressed to even BEGIN to comprehend the depth of Your love for ME! There are no words and, even if there were, I don’t know that I would be able to get them down on paper. I feel so inadequate and extremely unqualified to even try – so I pray and I ask You to help me live my life in a way that portrays and conveys what there are no words for – a love with no explanation – a love that can not be explained – a love that only You can give! I want my life to be a life that points others to You and honors You in a way no words can and a life that brings glory to Your Name! Without You, I am nothing and worth nothing; but, WITH YOU, I am unstoppable!

Help me to share the TRUE gift of Christmas every minute of my life – every second You give me breath; for I can not even take a breath without You filling my lungs with air! Help me to remember every day I have is a rare and precious gift FROM You and how I choose to use it is my gift TO You. I want to always be able to give You a lovely gift at the end of every day and, without Your help, even that isn’t possible.

My heart is truly overflowing this morning as I look back over this past year and remember all the wonderful “gifts” You have given me:

  • time spent with family & friends
  • growing love from & for my husband
  • a daughter making her way back to You
  • FREEDOM from my fears

and so many more! With You in my life, I truly can have Christmas every day, as can anyone else!

Thank You for all You have spoken to my heart this morning and, for all I have asked this morning, I ask it in the Precious, Holy Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth! I love You 🙂

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I LET IT SLIP AWAYToday I was asked to find a poem for someone about Christ rising from the dead. So, of course, I went to Google and started searching. I found some nice ones, some really good ones, but they weren’t about Christ rising from the dead. After reading a few, I heard something and tried to dismiss it. Something – or should I say Someone – was telling me I could do this. I could write something, if I would just get quiet and listen. Search the scriptures and listen. So, I did – search the scriptures and listen, that is – and before too long, it was written. Little did I know it was only the beginning of something my Father wanted to show me.

I wanted to attend a Communion Service tonight because, frankly, it has been a while since I’ve taken Communion and I felt I needed it. I have to be honest, I believe this is the first time I have ever felt I needed it. Don’t get me wrong – I always love it when I get to share in Communion, but I think it was always just something I do because I’m a Christian. Yes, I know it is something to be done very reverently and in the right manner and attitude, but, at the same time, even though I thought I was partaking in the right manner and attitude before, I now know that I wasn’t. Do I feel ‘condemned’ about that? Absolutely not! Why? Because God knows my heart and He knows I was not aware of what I had been doing – until tonight. Tonight, He revealed to me something huge about my relationship with Him. It hurt me to realize what I had been doing and yet, even in His correction, which I was ready and willing to accept, I could feel His deep, deep love for me.

What is it that He showed me about my relationship with Him? He showed me, as much as I love Him and as much as I thought I had been honoring Him, I was wrong. He took me back and showed me I had become a little ‘too comfortable’. Yes, He loves me and yes, He tells me I can come to Him at any time with any problem, big or small; but, He also reminded me I still need to keep my awe and reverence for Him intact. I can’t let myself become so comfortable with Him that I forget what He did for me. How He sent His ONLY SON to die for ME! His Son didn’t just die for me – He died a horrible, gruesome, cruel death and He would have done it even if I had been the only person on earth!

Lately, I have started hurriedly reading through Bible passages, just so I could get done and say, ‘I did it! I got my Bible reading done! WOO HOO!” I get up on Sunday mornings and go to church because it is the ‘right’ thing to do and because I do enjoy worshipping my Father. However, even in that worship, I find my mind so easily drifting to other things and not staying focused on my Father. I know that is a tactic the enemy uses on many of us, but I am only speaking of myself here, because I am responsible for me. What I’m saying about me is I don’t even think I can blame my lack of focus on the enemy. I am the one who seems to have forgotten Who it is I am worshipping and how worthy of my awe, reverence and total focus He is!

All I could do tonight, as He was pointing these things out to me, was cry. I shed many tears of sorrow in the realization of what I have been doing. The whole time He was showing me what I needed to correct, He was also loving on me and, as I asked for His forgiveness, He was lavishly giving it, just as He promised He always would.

I know the change won’t happen overnight. My loss of awe and respect didn’t happen overnight. It was a gradual change and one I didn’t even notice. I will be asking and seeking Him daily to help me regain that which I let slip away. I know He will be patient with me and help me regain the awe and reverence I lost.

All this because someone asked me to do a seemingly simple task. One thing I’m learning is to do my best to be aware when He is trying to get my attention. He got it today and then gave me that feeling of urgency to attend Communion tonight, where He knew I would be still, quiet and ready to listen to Him.

IN JAILI spent my first day in jail Monday, January 26, 2015. The difference between me and the ladies already inside? I would get to leave at the end of the day and they would not. I was a first-time participant in an event called ReNew Hope through the We Care Program. (Those names are in a different color so you can click on them and learn more about each)

I was nervous, not scared, as I did not know what to expect. I only knew I wanted to be able to go in and encourage these ladies, share the love of Jesus with them and, hopefully, be a small blessing to them. I’m still not sure if that happened or not, but God certainly used them to encourage me, share the love of Jesus with me and bless me beyond measure!

Monday, I told the other ladies on our team, since this was my first year to participate, I didn’t want to talk with anyone “on my own”. I was not even sure if I’d be going back on Tuesday, depending on how Monday went! Needless to say, I went back on Tuesday and again on Thursday. I didn’t go Wednesday because I was going into a different place Wednesday night and wouldn’t have been back in time. More about that later….

LESSON #1

I am so accustomed to using the Bible app on my phone, I didn’t even think to grab an actual Bible on Monday before I left, even though I knew I wouldn’t be able to take my phone inside the jail! So, all the other ladies on our team had Bibles and I had nothing 😦 I thought, ‘Oh well, no big deal, I’m gonna be pairing up with someone anyway, so it will work out okay’ and it did. Almost immediately, ladies were talking with us and they were so excited we were there. Some grabbed their own Bibles and they were noticing many of the ladies on our team had lots of notes in their Bibles. They asked, “Is it okay for us to write in our Bibles?” I remember telling more than one lady, “YES! Of course! Write in your Bible. Make yourself all kinds of notes as you’re reading and the Lord is showing you things where you’re reading. Write it down!!” As I was saying this to different ladies over and over, I felt the Lord asking me, “So, why don’t YOU do that anymore?” Yes, I was definitely convicted of not using His actual love letter to me, His Holy Word, the way I once did. I went home Monday night, got my Bible out and put it in a case to carry with me Tuesday. On Tuesday, He reinforced His message to me about His Word when we were allowed to visit with the ladies in what is called the lockdown wedge. One of the ladies there had just received a brand new Bible from the Chaplain and she was holding on to it for dear life. She had it clutched to her chest and had the biggest smile on her face. She was so happy and proud to have a nice Bible. She said she had never had one like it before and she didn’t even want to put it down. That scene touched my heart in a very deep place! Since my experience there, I now carry my love letter with me to church and I am beginning to use it at home, too, as I once did, instead of the app. The app on the phone is nice and I do still use it – but I’m getting back to using my “hands-on” Bible the way I should!

Tuesday we were able to visit with ladies we had not had time to visit with on Monday. I love how God always connects us with exactly who we need to connect with. I was able to share a very, teeny-tiny part of my testimony with one of the ladies. Another volunteer shared her testimony and I felt I needed to share that one small part of mine. I knew God was prompting me to share with her because she was experiencing many of the same things I have experienced in past years.

LESSON #2

Something else I learned on Monday is GOD CHANGED MY NAME! Our team leader was sharing the story of Zaccheus and how God knew he was in the tree and called him by name and told him to come down because He was going to eat with him that day. She told them the wonderful thing is God knows their names, too, and He knows exactly where they are. I was thinking about that Monday night after I got home and God showed me, while He did not change my name from what my parents had given me when I was born, HE most definitely changed it from my nickname back to my given name because I am no longer the person associated with that nickname. I am becoming the person He always intended me to be and that is why HE changed my name. You can read more about the meaning of my name change in my story here.

Wednesday was the day I planned to stay home so I could go into Holman Prison Wednesday night for the service there. For those who don’t know, my husband is an Asst. Chaplain at Holman through the We Care Program. Some of the other wives had chosen Wednesday night as the night to attend service there so, of course, I wanted to go the same night 🙂

OH! I have to add this side note here: One highlight of Wednesday had absolutely nothing to do with ReNew Hope – well, in a round-about way it did, I guess, since it happened at We Care Headquarters – but I was able to see a friend I haven’t seen in a LONG time and it was so wonderful to see her! She has been and still is in the process of fighting breast cancer and all that entails, so say a prayer for her – God knows who she is 😉 She is doing GREAT, by the way, but all prayers are appreciated 🙂

Now – back to the evening service at Holman. What an experience that was! There were TWELVE visitors to get checked in – five in the music group, two that were speaking, wife of one speaker, three wives associated with We Care and the photographer/videographer – and it was very different from how the ladies team had been checking in at the jail! We all signed in on the paper log at 3:46 p.m. By the time the Warden had entered all the information and fingerprinted us all in through the computer, it was 5:02 when we were receiving our visitor passes and the service started at 5:30. The men were already in the chapel waiting for service to begin. As we walked in, several of the men were in prayer. They were praying for the service and for individuals. We went in and sat on the front row as we were asked to do. Sitting there, listening to the men praying also touched a special place in my heart. Hearing one man in particular praying for individuals and calling them by name, well, it brought tears to my eyes. Going through our day-to-day lives, we can find ourselves thinking the men and women in prisons and jails don’t matter. We can almost let ourselves believe they are of no concern to us, they did something wrong and they are where they should be. We couldn’t be more wrong! Father, forgive me, if I ever start to feel that way, and remind me and others these men and women are someone’s sons and daughters, possibly husbands or wives, fathers and mothers, sisters and brothers. They are PEOPLE with feelings and emotions and regrets, just like I have every day and you know what? Jesus died for them the same way He died for me and I need to remember to love them with His love the same way He loves me!

The service was great and the time was over before we knew it and it was time to go home – or at least back to We Care Headquarters for another delicious supper prepared by those wonderful We Care ladies!

Thursday, back at the jail, was very nice. We were able to re-visit ALL the ladies we had seen during the week including the ones in the lockdown wedge. It was such a blessing to speak with them again. By Thursday, I also knew I would definitely be doing this again next year and, in fact, had even begun to think of others that I want to invite to join us!

It was a week of growing in the Lord and listening to Him and allowing Him to change the way I see a lot of things. While I shared two of the biggest lessons He taught me this week, there were many other lessons He taught me, also. Some may not be quite as ‘big’ as others, but certainly just as important. It most definitely made a change for the better in me and I pray I will continue to be teachable.

If you are interested in getting more information about how YOU can be a volunteer next year, be sure to click on the links in the first paragraph of this post or, if you want to ask me any questions about it, please do so. Feel free to leave a comment, if you are interested or have questions. I would love to speak with you about what a rewarding experience it is!

YOU'RE INVITEDSomeone asked me, on our team page, what I had done to end up with a $1,200 plus party and this was my response. After I finished it and read it over again, I felt it was something I needed to share with everyone to show how faithful and true God is. All praise, honor and glory to Him, my Father! Here is my response to her question:

That is the real BEAUTY of this order – I did not do ANYTHING – GOD did it ALL!!! I am TOTALLY serious when I say that, too. I had tried everything I knew to get a “home” party booked in March (2013). I had a catalog party going but that was it. I was getting parties booked for April and May but couldn’t seem to get anything for March and I, basically, just said, “That’s it. I’ve tried everything I know to do and I don’t have any ‘tricks’ left. I guess I just won’t have a home party in March, Lord, and if that is what You want, I’m okay with it because YOU put me in this business in the first place.” And I truly was okay with it. But God….I was sitting at my desk Sunday afternoon, March 10, working away and my phone rang. I almost didn’t answer it because I didn’t recognize the number – then remembered that I better answer it because my number is “out there” on a lot of things now and no telling who it might be. So, I answered it and it was a lady that I had never met before. She was saying something about Thirty~One and I thought she was wanting to place an order (as I had just finished up an ‘online’ party) so I was reaching for an order form. THEN I realized she was saying she wanted to HAVE A PARTY!!!! This lady ordered from someone back in November that had done a catalog party for me and now she wanted to have a party – a HOME PARTY – and the kicker? She wanted to have it SATURDAY!!! As in SIX days later Saturday. (Not much time for preparation or hostess coaching or anything!) I first said, “Well, I can do an evening party because I have a wedding to attend that afternoon.” She couldn’t do an evening party because they were having a singing at her church that she had to help with. I was looking for other dates we might could do it but she was saying Saturday would be the ONLY day in March she could do it as she would be going out of town for work. So, I thought very quickly and realized GOD had this woman to call me and I was NOT about to say no to a party that He, so obviously, was sending to me! LOL So, I told her okay and we set it up for 2:00 Saturday afternoon. She and her husband stopped by that evening on their way to church to pick up her packet and I didn’t see her again until the day of the party. It was the most CHAOTIC party I’ve ever done – people in and out, constantly coming and going – I was EXHAUSTED when I left there, but not because of anything I’d done – I was tired just from watching THEM – LOL – I did the “Mary Poppins” type of party and that was it. She had a little over $900 in sales when I left on Saturday and she told me, “I will have it up to $1200 by tomorrow afternoon because I want three of the Hostess Exclusives and I want them for FREE!” When she called me the next afternoon, she had a little over $1400 in sales.

So, I know that was a VERY long answer, but I HAVE to give ALL the credit to God and I felt I had to share the whole story for anyone reading this to understand WHY I say that and so they know, as I do, WITHOUT A DOUBT, that it most certainly was ALL GOD. Yes, I had to do my part – but HE is the One that gave me the party and HE is the One that blessed me for being obedient (taking the party He sent me instead of attending the wedding).

As I said before, HE is the One that put me in this business and He has blessed it beyond anything I could ever think or imagine. I know I am doing my part, but, honestly, I feel like I am just sitting back watching Him work – it is a WONDERFUL feeling 🙂

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Also, since it took me so long to get around to sharing this testimony on my blog, there has been an update to this story. The Hostess that had this party for me sent me a text about a week or so later wanting to know about becoming a consultant! We set a date to get together so I could share everything with her and then we set a date to get together and get her enrolled. She was the second lady to join my team. Since that time, which was only two weeks ago today, God has sent four other ladies to me. Two have joined my team, one I am meeting with this afternoon to get her enrolled and the fourth one I have to call today to set up a time to share everything with her. All this just days after I had prayed and asked God to help me remember this is HIS business and He will help me go wherever He wants me to go. I had started to get a little anxious about some things and had to remind myself to give it to Him and let Him do what He wants with it. I simply said, “Lord, if You want me to grow my team and go farther with this, then it will happen in Your time – not mine”. Then I forgot about it. I think He gave me the answer to that prayer when He sent every one of those ladies to me. You better believe that now I am DEFINITELY going to be ‘actively’ recruiting every time I can. Nobody can say YES, if I never ask. So, if you want to know more about what I’m referring to, just let me know and I’ll be more than happy to share 🙂

So thankful to Him for allowing me to do this and be a part of His continuing plan. He is SO good to me!

Love y’all!

NO APOLOGIESI offer no apologies for anyone that comes in contact with me or is contacted by me today. I am having one of those days where I am feeling overwhelmed by the love the Father has for me! I’m reminded, too, that as much as He loves me, He also loves those that we, as humans, tend to think of as ‘lowlifes’ or ‘good for nothings’. Here on earth we put people in different “statuses”; but, God – He loves us all the same and sees us all the same. He loves each one of us so much that He sent us a very precious gift, His Son, to die for us so that we could live with Him forever! The only difference He sees is those who have accepted His gift to us or those who haven’t – yet! He still loves us all the same, though, whether we have accepted His gift yet or not. He still wants each one of us to eventually accept His gift. 

HOW TOTALLY AMAZING IS THAT???? It absolutely blows my mind and is the reason for the tears that were slipping from the corners of my eyes this morning as I was thinking about it while driving to work. They weren’t sad tears. I really don’t know what you would call them but I like to think of those kind of tears as the overflow of His love for me. I feel His presence and His love for me so strongly that I can’t hold it all inside and it comes out in the form of tears. I wish I were poetic enough to describe how I’m feeling when it’s like this, but either I’m not or the words just haven’t been created yet, so I have to do the best I can with what I have to work with.

My prayer today is this: If you have never accepted Jesus as your Savior, don’t wait – do it today, this minute! You are not guaranteed another breath. He loves you as much as the Father does, He is standing right there at the door of your heart, knocking and knocking – He is just waiting for you to say, “Come in”. He is a gentleman and will not force His way in; but, know this, He also will not knock forever. There will come a day when He will determine that you have so hardened your heart that He will leave you alone, as you seem to want. I can only say that I pray that day doesn’t come for you. No matter how much you may think you want nothing to do with Him, the very minute you let the wall down and open the door to invite Him in, you will feel this wonderful, awesome, overwhelming love and you will be forever grateful that you let Him in.

I’m reminded of what I read in an Anne Graham Lotz Bible Study that I did several years ago. This is how she put it: He is the Savior who has redeemed me, the Lord who rules my life, The King who will return for me and He is the most important man in the UNIVERSE! He is the God man. Jesus Christ is THE MOST IMPORTANT MAN IN THE UNIVERSE FOR EVER & EVER & EVER! And the most important man in ALL the universe for EVER & EVER & EVER thinks that YOU are so important that He gave His own blood to redeem you. He gave His life for you. How can you feel unimportant? You are significant to THE MOST IMPORTANT MAN IN ALL THE UNIVERSE.

I also offer no apologies for the turn this blog seemed to take. I truly only wanted to share with everyone how overwhelmed with His love I was this morning; but, apparently, He had other ideas. Trust me, these words came straight from Him. As I was reading over what I had written, I was, once again, astounded at what He does when we allow Him to use us.

One more thing before I go – if you decide to accept Jesus as Your Savior and invite Him in, not only to your heart but your entire life, I would love to know so I can pray for you and with you. Just leave a comment here, a simple “I accepted Jesus” and I will definitely be praying for you.

Love y’all so much!

WIND BLOWN DOG“WOW! This wind is blowing the car everywhere! I am having to keep both hands on the steering wheel to keep it under control.” True statement I made today as I was driving to Auburn. As soon as the thought went through my mind, it made me start thinking about life, in general. How many times do I allow things to ‘blow me everywhere’ and get me off track from where God would have me to be? When I don’t “keep both hands on the steering wheel” – the steering wheel being God – it is not only easy, but inevitable that I will be blown off course by the “winds of life” – the enemy.

Passing the exit for Taylor Road in Montgomery reminded me of all the times I took that exit to go visit my daughter when she was attending AUM (Auburn University in Montgomery). She graduated high school in 2004 and began attending AUM in the fall of that same year. I remember during one of my visits there she said, “It’s nice here. I like it. But one day I am going to be at the “REAL” Auburn. I don’t know how or when, but I’m going to be there.”

Then life happened. She left AUM after one semester due to the cost. While away at AUM, having her first taste of ‘freedom,’ she had let go of God and let life’s winds begin to ‘blow her around.’ She was blown around like a little, limp, rag doll until she finally realized where she had gone wrong. She grabbed hold of God again with both hands and a fierceness she’d never known before. Still, one more really strong wind caught her off guard and blew her around for a very short time. This time, though, she had not completely let go and God held her tight and helped her get steady on her feet again when she called out to Him. She can certainly testify that, when you give God complete control of your life and do your best to do what He has for you to do, He WILL give you the desires of your heart. She will be graduating from the “REAL” Auburn in December of this year (2013)!

Remember I said when she was at AUM talking about being at the “real” Auburn one day? I don’t think I ever told her, but I was thinking to myself, “Dream big, honey. I don’t think that’s ever gonna happen, but dream anyway.” Yes, He recently reminded me of that and showed me that I could learn a lot from her about having faith. Even at a time when she was far from Him, she still believed she would be there one day!

He recently set me on a new path. One I never would have seen myself on, but one that He has already blessed in more ways than I could have ever imagined. Surprising me so many different times on so many different levels that I have quit trying to figure out what might be around the next corner. By setting me on this path, He has also opened up other areas and given me His strength, and His courage, to step up and do what He is asking. Just last Saturday, at a women’s event in our church, I was asked to say the blessing over the lunch – I could have said no and someone else would have done it. That is exactly what I wanted to do, but because of the course of events that led to me being asked, I knew in my heart that God was really the one asking, and I did not want to say no to Him. So, I did it! And I survived! That might not seem like such a huge deal to you but it was a HUGE, GIGANTIC step for me. Then, only two days later,  I was asked to do a short devotional in front of another group of women – a much smaller group, by far, yet still showing that He is wanting to stretch me and grow me even more in Him.

So, today, as I was pondering the wind blowing outside and the winds of life that blow us around, if we allow them to, I was reminded that, as long as I hold on to Him with both hands and keep my eyes on the road He has before me, He will guide me and give me everything I need to make the journey and make it well.

“But when you ask Him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind.” ~ James 1:6 (NLT)

Do you ever have trouble wondering if you’re hearing from God or am I the only one that struggles in that department? It’s times like that when I am forced to realize that I don’t spend the time in His Word that I should. If I did, maybe I wouldn’t question so much if it’s truly Him I’m hearing from but that’s a post for another day, right?

I recently went through this battle again – trying to figure out if I was hearing from Him or being absolutely crazy – but I handled things differently this time. Instead of telling anyone else what was going on, I kept it between Him and me. I decided prayer was my best way to go. I asked Him to show me, with no uncertainty, that it was absolutely HIM and I knew there were ways He could do this. I prayed and then I waited and listened and He made Himself so clear. I wish I had written down from the beginning all the things that transpired but I didn’t. On June 12 I did, however, go back and write down the things that really stood out from the beginning until that day and, after that, I wrote down each day the things that happened. Since I can’t figure out how to condense it down, I will just share from my journal for this particular journey.

THESE ENTRIES ARE MADE JUNE 12 – REMEMBERED THE BEST I CAN

Friday, May 4, 2012

I attended my first ever 31 Party with Jessica and Cassie in Auburn. It was there that I learned Thirty One is based on Proverbs 31. I never knew that. It was at that party I began to feel ‘hmmm…maybe I should have one of these parties’ but IMMEDIATELY dismissed the idea. Why? Because I had said I would not have any more ‘parties’ like that because no one would show up. The last party I tried to host was for a friend who was trying to get started in Premier Jewelry – NO ONE showed up except for my Mom. That ‘party’ consisted of me, my daughter, my Mom and the friend I had tried to help. What a disappointment – not to mention that it REALLY fueled my feelings of insecurity and rejection!

Week of May 7, 2012

I don’t really remember what day or how we even got on the subject (other than the Lord bringing it about, which I didn’t realize at the time) but my co-worker had been looking for something online and the next thing I knew I was telling her about Thirty One and all the neat things they have. She was looking at the website and made the comment there were lots of nice things that would make great Christmas gifts. Before I knew it, I was saying, “So, if I have a party, would you come or like to order something?” WHAAAAAAT??? I really just said that???? WHOA!!! {Guess I should have started getting suspicious right then but I was still clueless about what was coming – lol}

So, I sent a text to the only person I knew that was a Thirty One Consultant, Janalyn, and told her I’d like to have a party. It took us a while to be able to get together to pick a date but we finally did and settled on June 15.

Week of June 4, 2012

Sometime during this week – I’m thinking maybe around Thursday or Friday – another thought started nagging me at the back of my head. I had started looking through the catalog to make my ‘wish list’ and I really started getting excited about all the neat things I was seeing. Even though this thought went fleeting through my head, I sure didn’t let it linger or dwell on it – I just kept looking through the catalog.

 Saturday, June 9, 2012

I was looking through the catalog again to finish up my wish list, passing time until it was time for Mom and I to head to Daphne. As I was looking through the catalog again, that silly, nagging thought returned. I tried to immediately dismiss it again but it would not go away this time. I found myself giving in to it and sending Janalyn a text to see when I could meet with her so I could talk to her about it. I had quite a few questions because of this thought that had “attacked” (lol) me out of nowhere.

We were able to get together the next afternoon and she took a lot of time and answered all the questions I could think to ask and even shared some things that I had not thought about.

THE FOLLOWING ENTRIES ARE BEING MADE IN “REAL TIME”

 Tuesday, June 12, 2012

 After talking with Janalyn and getting the answers to my questions, I still felt I had a lot of praying to do. I have tried too many things “on my own” before and I only want to do this if I can truly feel from Him that it is something He wants me to pursue.

Every time I think about becoming a Thirty One Consultant, I get excited about helping people get organized and I start thinking, “I could do this”. Then all the ‘doubting Thomas’ questions come in to my head. This morning I was going through that same cycle again but when the questions started coming in my mind and I started doubting again, I suddenly felt as if ‘someone’ (hmmmm….wonder Who? LOL) was saying to me, “Who do you think is feeding you the doubt?” That’s when I suddenly felt peace again about doing this.

Later that morning I saw this post from one of my friends on Facebook: “For the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught. Prov 3:26. May we have God-confidence, not self-confidence” {Or as Renee Swope calls it – Godfidence!}

I took that as reassurance that I was definitely hearing from Him and I KNOW He is going to use this as a tool to help me further overcome my battle with insecurity.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Today’s Daily Promise is another reassurance that I am taking the step He wants me to take. This is what it said:

Matthew 17:19-20 WEB

19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately, and said, “Why weren’t we able to cast it out?”
20 He said to them, “Because of your unbelief. For most certainly I tell you,
if you have faith as a grain of 
mustard seed, you will tell this mountain,
‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.

 Promise #164: Nothing will be impossible for those who have even a little faith.

In this promise, Jesus tells us that even if our faith is as tiny as a mustard seed, we are able to tell a mountain to be thrown into the sea. Since I haven’t seen many mountains hurled into the sea lately, I often wonder what Jesus meant when He said these words to His disciples.

Of course we all have many figurative mountains in our lives that we face on a daily basis. Perhaps it isn’t the literal mountains around us that need moving, but these figurative ones? Maybe one day we will see literal mountains cast into the oceans, but in the meantime, what are the mountains in your life where you need a miracle? I love the fact that Jesus encourages us that we don’t need much faith at all to make a big impact.

From what I understand, a mustard seed is a very small seed, yet Jesus says even if our faith is that small, nothing will be impossible to us. Maybe it is time to start exercising the faith that you have? Start speaking to the mountains in your life with a childlike simplicity, just believing that they have to go away in Jesus name. Who knows what may start to happen?

 When I think of this promise, I am reminded of the man who came to Jesus to ask Him to deliver his son and Jesus asked him… “Do you believe?”. The man responded “Lord, I believe, help my unbelief!” Jesus didn’t rebuke the man for this response but healed his son instantly.

 God understands our frailty, yet He continues to encourage us to simply have faith and watch what happens. Today I am going to speak to the mountains in my life, how about you?

 My “mountain” is insecurity – automatically assuming people don’t want me around or that I’m ‘not good enough’ – but I know these are lies from the enemy and I am choosing to fight hard to ‘move that mountain’ with my faith.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

I will not apologize for not believing in ‘coincidence’. I believe God shows us things at the very time we need to see them and I believe He will use all different sources – be it a daily devotional, an inspirational email, a friend’s facebook post or a tweet on twitter or any other number of things – to give us answers to our prayers or to reassure us once we feel that we have received His answer, whether it is yes, no or maybe. That is why I had to chuckle just a bit when I opened my You Version Bible Reading for the day. The title? “Don’t Wait to Obey God”

There is a refreshing immediacy to Joseph’s relationship with God. When God said it, Joseph did it.

 If you believe God loves you and you want to live a life of obedience in response to His love, then this is how you should respond: When God says it, then do it.

 I’ve had the opportunity to meet a lot of great men and women of faith from around the world. They’re all different from each other, but they all have one thing in common. When they sense God saying to do something, they don’t hesitate. They step out and do it.

 First John 5:3 says, “This is love for God, to obey His commands. And His commands are not burdensome.” (NIV) I was talking recently with Tom Holladay, my brother-in-law, about why, when God asks you to do something, it sometimes feels like a burden. What’s wrong?

 We decided it’s often because of procrastination. When we don’t act right away, it becomes harder to do the longer we wait. But when we do what God says, freedom comes into our lives.

 What is God calling you to do? Is it a phone call you need to make? An action you need to take? Whatever it is, write it down right now, tell God you’re willing to do it and ask Him to give you the strength you need to make it happen.

So – I ‘sort of’ have this one licked already – I have already started writing it down and I HAVE been asking Him to give me not only the strength but the COURAGE I need to make it happen. And I know that He will.

Another thing I want to share is, I also felt He was saying to me, “Say nothing to anyone until the night of the party and make the announcement then.” That was REALLY hard for me because I REALLY wanted to talk to my Mom about it and I also wanted to tell a very close friend and my daughter – but I didn’t. Oh, I came close to letting it slip a couple of times, but I was able to realize what I was about to do and reminded myself that I couldn’t. Let me just tell you how the enemy tried to get me to “spill the beans” before I was supposed to: A co-worker was looking through the catalog today and asked me, “Is this something you’re selling now?” It was REALLY hard not to say anything BUT I knew exactly where that question came from – he was a little TOO obvious with that one so I simply replied, “No” which was an honest answer because I had not signed up to be a consultant – YET 😉

Friday, June 15, 2012

WOW! I was beginning to wonder if this day would EVER get here and then I thought 6:30 would NEVER come! Thankfully, I was fairly busy all day getting the house ready and food prepared. I had received 15 “yes” responses from my invitations and 7 “maybe” responses but I was still wondering if anyone would actually show up. Then it started – I started receiving texts saying “I really was planning to come but…” or “I’m not gonna be able to make it after all” and you KNOW what the enemy started doing. Started putting thoughts in my head of how no one would actually show up and I was TOTALLY missing God on this one and why did I even think for a minute I should do this. But I IMMEDIATELY dismissed these thoughts because I knew of some that were coming for sure and I REFUSED to let the enemy camp in my thoughts. The time of the party finally arrived and can you guess what happened? That’s right – you got it – the living room was SO full that if one more person had shown up, I know we would have fit them in, but I sure don’t know where or how! LOL There were a total of 15 people here, including Janalyn and myself.

There you have it –  my journey to becoming a Thirty One Consultant. Now I am excited about beginning the journey as a consultant. Whether God has me here for a long time or a short time, I know this is where He has me right now and I can’t wait to get started. There is one other thing that happened allowing me to know for sure that God is the One that called me to this and it wasn’t just a ‘fleeting’ idea that went through my head, but I am not at liberty to share what it was at this time. I will share it when I have permission from the other person that it involves. Just trust me that it was the one final piece of information to assure me once and for all that this is definitely a “God” thing 🙂

I will keep you all updated about how the journey goes and I would also love to hear from you about your journeys. Any mountains you want to speak to or that you’ve spoken to in the past? Would you share? Maybe you can only share that you are currently on a journey and would like prayer – that’s okay, too. Share only that request for prayer. I’m sure that others would join me in praying for God to show you His direction, even though you can’t share the specifics. I look forward to hearing from y’all.


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